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    Friday, July 31, 2009, 7/31/2009 01:02:00 PM
    EVE

    Eve of my birthday today!
    HAPPY?
    SAD?
    I'm turning 20 tml, a BIG 2 =(
    SUPER OLD T_T

    School till 530pm today, after that shopping.
    Hope i can get something for tml.

    Will be out with poly friends tml morning.
    It's abit sad,
    Cause i'm not able to celebrate with my sec school or ...
    Althou we seldom contact.
    But they are nice & funny.
    Wanted to ask my other friends along but its difficult cos they dono each other and will be hard to communicate.
    Really wanted to ask EVERYONE out, EVERYONE together.
    Why can't everyone be extrovert?

    At night, with my other group of friends.
    My asm plan everything.
    I have no idea on who's going and what we doing cos he don't wana say.
    But still feel thankful that he took the effort to plan.

    How was the subway?
    Should be nice isn't it?
    Cause this is what i ate when i'm there.

    I don't wana fight for anything,
    Cause i know i won't get what i want in the end.
    If i can choose what i wana become,
    Things would be different.




    Wednesday, July 29, 2009, 7/29/2009 01:35:00 PM
    Give me my motivation

    Later having NE lesson.
    So i think will release early.
    Plan to go tcc eat with friends at bugis.
    I want to shop for clothes.
    I hope i can find a nice one for sat.

    Last year i didn't celebrate cos it falls on friday and i have night class.
    I really hope i will celebrate this year happily before my 21st.
    I haven't plan anything, that day seems so blur so blur.
    A drink till drop session.

    Actually i plan to skip NE lessons to do something else.
    But i got no motivation now.
    There is something holding back inside.
    Hate myself for being indecisive.
    What should i do?
    What's wrong with me?
    A small corner, just a small corner.


    该不该再继续 该不该有回忆 让爱一步一步靠近
    我对你有一点动心
    却如此害怕看你的眼睛
    有那么一点点动心 一点点迟疑
    不知结果是悲伤还是喜
    我很丑可是我很温柔.
    Maybe no NE. @#$%&^!




    Tuesday, July 28, 2009, 7/28/2009 03:49:00 PM
    3rd time

    Went to take my trial test + BTT.
    I dono my result cos there's smth wrong with their system.
    We shade our ans on the ans sheet instead of using the touchscreen com.
    They say will let us know our result thru post in 2 weeks time.
    That's long.

    I doubt i'll pass.
    Have got 2 qns wrong already.

    This is 1 stupid mistake that i made:

    Q : What is the use of seat belts?

    (a): Reduce risk of injury or death in collisions.
    (b): Reduce chances of accidents.
    (c): Control your body movement when eu are approaching a bend.
    My ans: C
    Correct ans: A
    2nd time i chose this ans. Argh!

    This is the 2nd qn that i CONFIRM get it wrong:

    Q : Which is true?

    (a): Overtaking at left lane is allow if there is slow traffic or traffic congestion at the right lane.
    (b): Overtaking at left lane is not an offence if it is safe and doesn't cause any danger.
    (c): Overtaking at left lane is an offence and is not allowed at all situations.
    My ans: B

    Althou i dono the correct ans, but it will be either A or C rather than B lo. No wonder i always fail. @#$%^!

    I told my friend.
    He says this:
    " You wait for people to fetch eu lar huh."

    So so sad ='(




    Monday, July 27, 2009, 7/27/2009 01:28:00 PM
    It's another day without eu

    Just came back from pool's break.
    I'm a lousy player thou cos i don't play everyday.
    But eu are different.
    I wana play pool with eu,
    With eu beside teaching me.

    I'm really moody with lots of stuffs.
    Be it school work or personal stuffs.
    Fyp is really ending soon.
    Less than a month now.
    I'm looking forward to holidays.
    Will be working, working & working.
    Need save money for lots of things.
    They say they want to train me for bar.
    It should be quite cool as compare to being on the floor.
    But if there's Ivan around in the bar,
    Life is like hell man.

    Sat is getting nearer and nearer.
    A day which i don't want it to arrive so fast.
    To others, it's just a normal day.
    I don't actually wana bother about that day either.
    But 1 year 1 time leh.
    It' ll be sad huh if i were to stay at home and slp throughout the day or outside shopping alone.

    I wanted so much to ask eu out on that day.
    Be it just for less than an hr.
    I really wanted so much.
    Do eu even remember what day was it on this coming sat?
    I can just hope, that i'll get to see eu on sat.




    Sunday, July 26, 2009, 7/26/2009 12:07:00 AM
    Sat

    Now at my friend's hs.
    Just now impian gave me a ride on her bike here.
    So cool lar cos she is riding at 140km/h at the expressway.
    Just kidding, haha.
    Just realise that bike can be fun too.

    Arm is still aching from ytd's typhoid vaccination jab.
    And today they still asked me to be runner -.-
    But they are saying that i will get fever within a few days.
    NOT AGAIN.
    Tml is going to be a super long day. Sigh
    I wana eat lasagne so much.
    But im eating instant noodle now.
    And playing Wii later.

    I wana get subway for eu.




    Friday, July 24, 2009, 7/24/2009 09:01:00 AM
    I don't know what i want

    Yesterday i said smth,
    Which i think i will regret later.
    But i don't want.
    So what if i regretted saying those words,
    So what if i were to take back my words.
    Everything will be back to the starting point again.
    I need alot alot of determination,
    Alot of companion,
    Alot of distraction.

    I was really happy when i thought he is feeling the same way as i do.
    Really happy.
    But it turns out to be just your assumption.
    I assume, eu assume, they assume.
    Which is so far away from the truth.

    What is the diff between giver and receiver?
    Would eu rather be the giver or receiver?

    Never regret the things eu do, i never.
    Only regret things that eu never do.
    What have i still not done yet?
    I think im not that firm after all.




    Thursday, July 23, 2009, 7/23/2009 07:10:00 PM
    Messed up

    Confused Confused & Confused.
    Why are people so untrustworthy?
    Or am i being too trusting?

    I'm hungry.
    But no one is here to buy me food,
    Cause im alone here.
    Maybe on my way home,
    I' ll go get my durian pancake.
    I'm seriously craving for it!
    Should i go get a set of nuggets meal now?
    But i lazy to walk to the mcdonalds.
    But then i'm hungry.
    Mcdonalds uncle, can eu deliver it here to me pls =(

    My mood recently is like sitting in a roller coaster.
    I wish everything is just a nightmare.
    People always say:
    You will see rainbow if eu walk thru the rain.




    Wednesday, July 22, 2009, 7/22/2009 11:21:00 PM
    Right & Wrong

    What's right & what's wrong?
    Who's right & who's wrong?
    Everyone have their own way of arguing.
    To everyone,
    whatever i think or do is wrong.
    I may be wrong
    But,
    Doesn't mean eu are always right.
    Anyway,
    I'm too sick to bother.

    I'll go have my dinner follow by antibotics.
    After that, i'll go to bed.
    Craving for amk durian pancake.
    The big scoop of durian~ omg
    I want to have a sweet dream.
    Nights.




    7/22/2009 06:15:00 PM
    I can't say goodbye

    I tried to walk away
    and i tried to move on with my life
    but every time i got close to saying it
    goodbye was the farthest thing from my mind

    I laughed and had a good time
    and the pain was slowly fading
    but my heart was beating for you
    and goodbye was never going to happen

    I tried to live my life without missing you
    but every time i said or hears something
    you came back like a voice and i knew i couldn't live

    I guess i have to live with the fact
    thats clear to everyone else
    you are the only one who makes me smile
    and i can't say goodbye to you




    7/22/2009 06:15:00 PM
    It is what it is.

    The skies are grey,
    the clouds are torn,
    here comes the darkness,
    followed by the storm

    If you give me a minute,
    the vibe will change,
    hold me closer,
    and the skies will range,

    From blue to yellow,
    from orange to green,
    from gray ugly matter,
    to sparkles and sheen.

    Just hold out your hand,
    latch it to mine,
    stay with me now,
    and the sun will shine.

    Love is a challenge,
    that life throws your way,
    it turns over skies,
    from blue to gray.

    If love can conquer,
    your sky will stay clear,
    You will have nothing to worry,
    and nothing to fear.

    For love is like magic,
    it leaves and reappears,
    it can mold you like plastic,
    or cut you like sheers,

    you must always be careful,
    for it takes on many faces,
    it can fool you in seconds,
    and leave empty spaces.

    But when your enveloped,
    in the beauty of love,
    you tend not to notice,
    when push comes to shove.

    Its nothing to fear for,
    or avoid at costs,
    for the pain makes you stronger,
    and it makes up it loss.

    Just take it as warning,
    look where you step,
    and dont ever look back,
    on the last things you've left.




    Tuesday, July 21, 2009, 7/21/2009 11:13:00 AM
    Black

    I'm in school now.
    Still feeling abit unwell.
    Cough* Cough*
    I wanted to go amk,
    Looking for nice food and then buy it to eu.
    Wanted to do this so much,
    Just to make myself feel better.
    But,
    I got no energy to walk so far.
    Excuses huh.

    I also wish miracle will happen.
    But i won't be that lucky person.
    My world is so black.




    Sunday, July 19, 2009, 7/19/2009 09:21:00 PM
    Pain

    I'm shivering now.
    Have not stepped out of my house for 3 days because i'm sick.
    But i'm still sick now.
    No energy.
    If tml morning still the same,
    I think i would have to extend my mc.
    But,
    I'm super bored at home.
    Watch tv,
    Sleep,
    Porridge,
    Medicine.
    My throat pains like hell.
    I'm dying soon. (lame) HAHA    .


    Why is it so hard to get eu out of my mind?
    Everday, every minute, every moment.
    No matter how remorseful am i,
    How much i do,
    I' ll only get one reply from eu,
    " Oh, okie."
    You' re still the one now.

    I don't need anyone to care for me so much other than eu.
    I just want to be alone for now.




    Saturday, July 18, 2009, 7/18/2009 10:12:00 PM
    Life

    Maybe i'm really wrong to have that thinking,
    That i thought i can change eu to become better.
    Maybe i'm selfish.
    Cause i want eu to become what i want eu to become.
    Is it really because i love eu?
    Or am i controlling eu?
    Everyone have their own, individual life to lead.
    Everyone is free to do what they want to do.
    It's my fault that things come to this end.
    Going thru this for the 2nd time,
    I swear i'm not going to commit the same mistake for the 3rd time.
    Being in a relationship should be happy and sweet,
    Not quarrels and unhappiness.
    If i were to do all these like what i'm doing now ever since we started,
    would things still come to this end.
    At least i know,
    We will be much happier.




    Friday, July 17, 2009, 7/17/2009 11:42:00 PM
    Sick

    I'm sick.
    High fever + sore throat + whole body aching.
    The doc gave me 3 days mc.
    Why it happen during weekends huh.
    Now i have to stay at home and rest during sat and sun.
    So not used to staying at home on sat and sun.
    Sucks lo.
    And i hate eating medicine.
    I HATE my sup also.
    He ask my group mate to msg me and tell me i need a valid reason for not going to sch today.
    I'm really sick lar huh.
    Then all they know is mc, mc and MC.
    That piece of paper is actually more important than anything else.
    CRAP.
    Feels so unwell now.
    So much food that i cannot eat.
    No ice cream,
    No potato chips,
    No chocolate,
    No durian,
    No KFC, Mcdonalds or pizza hut.
    Only porridge.

    I'm so missing eu.
    I want eu to take care of me.




    Thursday, July 16, 2009, 7/16/2009 11:15:00 PM
    Birthday watch

    So tired.
    Just came back from orchard.
    Went to eat dinner at tcc with 3 of my friends.
    We ate seafood aglio, lasagne, linguine and roasted garlic chix spag.
    Dessert will be Devil-misu, Dark Devotion, devil choco cake and marble cheesecake.
    We had azuki freeze, rose juliet, matcha kiss and 2 cups of irish coffee.
    The irish coffee was.. woot~

    After that , we went to wisma to shop for a watch.
    My friend say he needed to get a present for his cousin as a wedding gift.
    I believe it thou and helped him to choose.
    But turn out,
    That watch was meant for me as my birthday present which is like 2 weeks later.
    This is the watch that i chose    ,



    I was happy lar huh.
    Cause i needed a watch badly.
    Now that i have a watch,
    I'm able to wear it and look at the time instead of taking out my hp to check.
    Thanks for the whoever who treated us for dinner + my watch. HAHA.

    Actually i don't need anything.
    I don't need real expensive presents to be happy.
    I don't need eu all to treat me to real expensive food to be happy.
    I' ll be very happy if eu all remember my birthday and wish me on that day or even better being there.
    And i'll be happy as long as he is happy.
    I admit that i treat eu very badly sometimes.
    But still, thanks again.
    You' re a nice person,
    But,
    I really cannot or don't know how to face eu sometimes.

    Actually i don't hope that day to come so fast..




    Wednesday, July 15, 2009, 7/15/2009 04:25:00 PM
    15th - Birthday wishes

    Hiding in one corner eating Mcnuggets.
    Wanted to go orchard to take my pay but lazy go.
    I was so happy and excited in the lab just now.
    Cause i ask my lab mates to try the cheesecake that i bake for the first time.
    All say not bad lo.
    Then i was like smiling to myself la.

    It was suppose to be for eu.
    You say is i buy one.
    I'll be lying thru my teeth if i say i don't mind at all.
    I thought that maybe deep in my heart eu will have the same expression as what my other lab mates give.
    After thinking through,
    I know actually it makes no diff to eu whether is i bought it or made it myself.
    Anyway,
    It's all over.
    -
    -

    My birthday wishes:
    You will bake a cake and surprise me on 1st August.
    You will be there to celebrate this day with me on 1st August.
    You will sing for me on 1st August.
    You will give me a kiss on my lip, a tight hug before eu go on 1st August.

    People always say that wishes don't come true once eu say it out.
    I have said it out,
    Cause i know it won't come true at all.
    I don't want my 1st August this year to be like last year.

    9.30pm




    7/15/2009 04:25:00 PM
    If i never see ur face again

    " If i never see your face again,
    then i will find eu and love eu once more."

    Today is the 15th.
    I still remember six months ago,
    everything is just so perfect.
    The day when eu asked me to make a decision between friends and eu.
    The day when we know we will have each other to rely on whenever we are sad.
    Maybe i didn't do enough when we are together.
    Maybe my attitude towards eu sucks.
    Maybe i really take eu for granted.
    And,
    I know it's too late to even say anything now.

    I'm not born to be like them.
    I'm not born to be pretty.
    I'm not born to be perfect.
    Thanks for once saying that eu don't mind at all.

    LY's cheesecake.
    Just for eu.




    Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 7/14/2009 09:31:00 PM
    14th

    I never go school today again =X
    Don't feel like going to school anymore.
    I'm at Jenny's hs now baking cheesecake.
    Now my whole body is like so cheesy lar. HAHA
    Wonder how it taste like? hmm.
    I'll upload the photo when i reach home.

    Bye!




    Monday, July 13, 2009, 7/13/2009 06:19:00 PM
    Its Mon again

    So tired today so decided to skip school.
    Yesterday was a bad and emo night. HAHA
    It's bad luh.

    Wednesday is the 15th.
    Planned to bake a cake which i have NEVER done before.
    I wanted cheesecake but it's difficult lar huh for a beginner like me.
    Am i still going along with it?
    I need it by wed, but no one's there to help me with it.
    Am hungry, am hungry.
    Haven eaten anything since i woke up.
    So i have skipped breakfast and lunch and waiting for my dinner now.
    Wanted to eat these so much so much,
    Althou its kinda stupid.



    Hate FYP.
    Stupid final year project.
    Everyday slacking or doing stupid engineering things.
    And i'm not close with the people in my lab.
    I don't know why.
    Maybe they don't like me. LOLS
    I talk alot to people that i've fun talking to.
    I hate keeping quiet.
    I don't like not fun people.
    I want alot of friends, fun friends.
    And,
    I need alot of money now seriously.
    I have no confidence in myself.
    I'm addicted to drinking and partying.
    I love to be drunk even thou it feels terrible.
    But,
    This is not what i like, what i want to do.
    There'll be one day,
    I believe,
    That i'll change all these for someone.




    Sunday, July 12, 2009, 7/12/2009 03:46:00 AM
    I care

    Just finish bathing.
    Waiting for my hair to dry before i can go to bed.
    Just now, i was planning to drink the green bean soup when i saw a lizard swimming inside. =X
    Yucks lo.

    Yesterday was quite fun at butter.
    Just will feel abit awkward and left out cause i don't know the people well.
    But overall was happy la huh cause i get to dance with the loud loud music.
    We left butter at 3am.
    I didn't join them for early breakfast.
    So i sat down alone at near the esplanade there crying. LOLS.

    The view here at night is so nice lo.
    Decided to take NR1 to amk to eat since it's still early.
    In the bus, there is this guy who came to sit beside me.
    He is scary lo, keep asking me qns like what i like to do and stuffs.
    I so scare cause im alone at that time.
    So scare he will alight with me at amk.
    But in the end,
    HAHAHA.
    I know eu're sick.
    Take care of yourself okies.
    I cares,
    But i can't be there.
    I'm tired now.
    Slept at 8am. Woke up at 2pm.
    Nights.




    Friday, July 10, 2009, 7/10/2009 04:58:00 PM
    GOOD friday

    Phew~
    Back to my cooling lab.
    Just now went to amk hub to get new york new york then walk all the way back to sch.
    Hawaii teriyaki chicken chop!
    Just for eu.

    Just now my presentation sucks to the core lo!
    I HATE MY WONG.
    HE IS SUCH A BASTARD.
    Can anyone tell me whether is a triangle table or a square table more stable?
    My sup told me is triangle table.
    BUT,
    When i told my assessors just now,
    They shoot me back.
    He say i don't even understand this simple theory!
    Not my fault right huh!
    SO WHO'S RIGHT?
    AND,
    the stupid-est thing i did is i CRIED.
    Stupid foolish me.
    Can i don't be so weak?

    I'll be off from sch at 530pm.
    After that go home bath and change and meet jane for butter.
    A long and tiring night waiting for me.
    I'll be siting at the riverside waiting for eu.

    If there were be one day eu happen to read this post,
    Just wana say,
    You are just great.
    I swear i never thought of leaving eu because of other better guys out there.
    Althou i used to compare eu with them,
    But i'll only wana stay with eu forever if eu allow me to.
    To others, they dono.
    I know myself,
    There will be better girls out there for eu.
    I'll let eu go.




    Thursday, July 9, 2009, 7/09/2009 12:35:00 PM
    Tiny me

    What is the first thing i do when i reach the lab?
    Blogging. haha
    This is getting from bad to worst.
    I'm getting later and later these days.
    This week up to now,
    I already 3 days after 12PM den reach sch when it's suppose to be 830AM.
    Yesterday i left 5 hours earlier. =X

    But i JUST CAN'T wake up in the morning la!
    I so scared they will fail me cause i everyday late. REALLY.
    Or my grade will drop. HOW?
    I think the sup know just that they keep quiet.
    Don't know when they will explode out only.

    Actually there's still alot to be done for my presentation slides.
    But i don't know still can do what.
    Yesterday my assessor told me this:
    " Don't need to wear formal, what we want to see is the quality."
    STRESS huh.

    Actually eu're right.
    How long can i do?
    As time pass by, i'll eventually forget just like the way eu do now.
    You have too many things going on around eu.
    Too many responsibilities.
    I wanted to be there.
    I didn't realise this last time.
    But,
    All these are actually so impt as compare to a tiny me.
    Maybe i should learn to love myself more.

    I'm hungry.
    Off to the canteen now.
    AND LAST,
    I love eu.




    Wednesday, July 8, 2009, 7/08/2009 09:55:00 AM
    Sorry


    By right my presentation should start in another 20 mins time.
    BUT one of my assessor suddenly came to the lab and tell me that MY WONG YAU cannot make it today and had to change the date to friday morning.
    Today is wednesday -.-
    @#$%^&*!
    I just want to get it over and done with lo.
    But now must drag until friday and that marks the last day of the week. LAME SHIT!

    I'm so bored so bored now.
    So cold also cause i nvr bring my sweater.
    Cause one thing,
    My bag will be heavy cos i brought my black pants to school in case they want me to wear very formally.

    And ytd wilson and i decided to go and book our btt during lunch time and i'm going slack outside until very late.
    So i didn't bring my sweater as i won't be in the lab most of the time.
    BUT he never come to school today + my presentation is not yet over.
    Am i going to stuck at this lab for the whole of today?!


    What's love?
    - Do what ur love one says and not make them feel terrible or sad?
    - Hope that they will be happy even if this is not the outcome eu want.
    - Be persistent in what eu're doing cause eu believe that there'll be one day, he will turn back.
    - Be persistent and do cause eu love him, eu dont expect anything in return.

    I hate myself for being so weak. Sorry.




    Tuesday, July 7, 2009, 7/07/2009 11:30:00 PM
    Crush

    Tml is my presentation day.
    Hope everything goes well.
    After 1040am, i'll slack the whole day.
    HAHA.

    I'm planning to cut, dye and do soft reborning tml.
    But at where leh? hmm.
    AND book my btt + trial test again.
    Hope my hair will turn out better than now if i were to do it tml.
    If not i will CRY.

    I dont know how to put video so yea,
    Everything that i want to say is in this song.


    David Archuleta -----Crush

    I hang up the phone tonight
    Something happened for the first time
    Deep inside
    It was a rush, what a rush
    Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way
    About me
    It's just too much, just too much

    Why do I keep running from the truth
    All I ever think about is you
    You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
    And I just got to know

    Do you ever think
    When you're all alone
    All that we can be
    Where this thing can go
    Am I crazy or falling in love
    Is it really just another crush
    Do you catch a breath
    When I look at you
    Are you holding back
    Like the way I do
    Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
    But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

    Has it ever cross you mind
    When were hangin, spending time girl
    Are we just friends
    Is there more, is there more
    See it's a chance we've gotta take
    Cause I believe that we can make this into
    Something that will last, last forever, forever

    Do you ever think
    When you're all alone
    All that we can be
    Where this thing can go
    Am I crazy or falling in love
    Is it really just another crush
    Do you catch a breath
    When I look at you
    Are you holding back
    Like the way I do
    Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
    But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away
    -

    FAT GIRL + HANDSOME RICH GUY only happens in fairytale.




    Monday, July 6, 2009, 7/06/2009 11:54:00 PM
    I'm wrong

    Just came back from school.
    Manage to finish what i'm suppose to do.
    Less stressful now cause i only left the presentation slides.
    But i'm not happy cause.. yea, eu will know if eu are with me at that time.
    Munching my dinner now which consist of egg, meat, vegetable & soup.

    On my way home in the bus,
    I saw this.
    There is this 2 elderly,
    one 40+,
    the other 60+,
    maybe they are mother and daughter,
    maybe they are sibling,
    i dono.
    that 40+ woman is sick.
    AND it's that 60+ woman looking after her,
    guiding her to the seat,
    ensure that she is seated properly.
    The whole scene is like oh, so sad lo huh.

    I thought eu really mean it when eu say eu actually needs someone diff from eu,
    someone like me.
    I thought i can change eu to be better.
    Maybe i'm wrong.
    I don't know that i'm actually suffocating eu.
    I'll always remember all the things that eu teach me.
    Cause i know all the things eu said are for my own good.
    That is the real eu.




    Sunday, July 5, 2009, 7/05/2009 11:47:00 PM
    Sucks

    Just reach home after my work.
    Went to eat Burger King with my working colleagues.
    I ate tendergrill chicken. It was yummy lo.

    I pass by that place,
    Where we used to sit by the river and had a nice talk,
    Where eu are still beside telling me how much eu love me.

    I was seriously dead drunk yesterday.
    I slept in the toilet.
    I'm feeling super giddy.
    I'm screaming.
    I'm feeling soo terrible.
    I slept in the cab as though its my bed.
    I vomitted all the way back to woodlands.
    At that moment, i told myself:
    I'm not going to drink and make myself so freaking terrible again.
    But,
    Why do people still love to drink so much and get themselves drunk even thou they already know it'll be so terrible?
    I didn't bath and i went to bed.

    It was a bad morning.
    Quarrels+Quarrels.
    I hate eu all to the core.
    I was crying,
    I got the urge to call eu.
    But i know eu won't bother.

    Don't need eu all to say,
    I'll definitely move out one day.
    You all are nothing to me.




    Saturday, July 4, 2009, 7/04/2009 02:05:00 PM
    YOU

    Just wake up.
    Starting work in 2 hours time.
    Ivan is not around so today it'll be less stressful at work.
    Yesterday i stay in school until 11pm to learn UG from Mr Teo.
    Damn tiring huh. And he told me that WONG YAU, my asessor is a very strict guy.
    I'll know it myself on wednesday =X

    I saw something.
    But i had to pretend i never see anything.
    Sucks huh.
    And pretend to act normal like how i used to be.
    I don't like @#$%^&*!
    Why must people do and write stuffs that will make eu feel disgusted sometimes?
    Enough is enough. hais
    Maybe its i think too much lar huh.

    What should i do after work?
    Zouk?
    Dxo?
    HAHA.
    Taha will decide.
    Drink,drank,drunk.
    -

    You never give the best to me before.
    You took away the things i loved the most.
    You make me suffer.
    You make me feel inferior.
    You treat me so unfair.
    Why?
    Let me get through all these,
    I don't want to love anymore.




    Friday, July 3, 2009, 7/03/2009 05:57:00 PM
    Slacking



    Just off from school.
    Guess what am i doing now.
    Facebook-ing, blogging, music-ing.
    Counting down,
    2 more days for me to prepare everything cos sat and sun will not even have the time to touch my project.
    I'm scared lo, don't want to get shoot T_T
    Another late night again in school.

    Feeling so really moody.
    Dont want to go sch, do projects but i have no choice.
    People are saying i'm overdoing it.
    Is it wrong to show my emotional mood out?
    Must i fake a smile to eu even though i dont mean it?
    Is this the correct way?
    I want to be happy but I cannot force myself to when my heart is not feeling that way.
    It's not good to have people having a crush on eu; unless that's the person eu like.

    我在搞笑 借着热闹 掩盖着心跳
    边哭边笑 偏要说着 一个人真好
    当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉
    我受不了
    还在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎么熬

    Did a facebook quiz.
    " If i could rewrite the alphabet, i would put U & I together."
    So duper sweet lo huh.

    The things we do, the words eu said keep rehearsing in my mind.
    Lent me your shoulder,
    i want to cry.




    Thursday, July 2, 2009, 7/02/2009 03:46:00 PM
    Just eu

    Alarm rang at 7+ .
    Really too tired to even open my eyes so i sleep back.
    Woke up at 10+ when i'm suppose to reach sch at 830am.
    No one was at home. Seldom can sleep until 10+ when i'm having fyp now.
    So i thought can slack at home awhile more before i go to sch but i'm wrong.
    I just have to leave the house as fast as i could cos i REALLY think alot and get really emo when i'm alone at home.

    It was about lunch time when i reach sch. Had lunch with jr, wilson and Alan.
    After that, back to my lab again. Everyone was giving me the omg face. It was about 2pm.
    HAIS. i'm still stuck at my work.
    I really wish an angel is here to help me, guide me =(
    I hate being independent.
    Others seem very relaxed except me.
    Maybe this is the consequence of last min work.

    Presentation is on next wednesday , 1020am .

    I love taking photos nowadays =) , me&myself.
    Who is the person eu think of before eu go to bed every night and the moment eu wake up every morning?
    I'm not lying, it's eu.
    Every photo of me, i hope one day, there will be another eu beside.





    Wednesday, July 1, 2009, 7/01/2009 09:44:00 AM
    HAIS


    Yesterday was suppose to blog but too tired le so never.
    These few days have not been giving good attitude to everybody.
    You know why?
    Cause im really too stressed up by things. alot&alot, neverending. so pardon me okie.
    I will get better when things start to get better.
    My 3D drawing sucks to the core. AND i need to draw so many things for the presentation next week. Suppose to draw using NX 3 as well but i dont think i can fufill that. HAIS
    But still glad that jr and yr came to school and help me. Cause i cannot depend on my 2 group mates for sure -.-
    At least i bother to ask my friends.
    At least i have the sense of urgency now.
    Are eu 2 waiting for me to finish drawing everything and then photocopy from me?
    Shall not say too much, its bad huh.
    -
    I hate my curly hair now. esp at the back =(
    But i cannot:
    Do soft reborning.
    Dye hair.
    But nevermind, its worth it =)
    I'm hungry.
    I'm feeling so alone.
    & I'm so missing eu.
    -

    Back to drawing, it sucks.