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    Thursday, October 29, 2009, 10/29/2009 11:39:00 PM
    Sucky mood

    Hmm, my parents & my younger bro will be going to malaysia to visit my grandfather tml for 3 days.
    They have to go there once every 2-3 weeks now.
    So, i'll have to settle the 3 meals myself & wash my own clothings as well.
    :(

    I can stay over at friend's house.
    Or ask my friend over.
    Wander around outside until morning.
    So bored at home lar huh.

    I was abit upset when i heard what jenny told me.
    By right, this is what i owe eu, i know.

    I'm in your shoes before.
    When at that moment, i did what eu did to me to another person.
    I don't appreciate at that point of time, just like the other person.
    He doesn't too.

    But i don't regret & won't ask anything back from him.
    People always say,
    If eu treat them good, they will treat eu good in return.
    I don't seems to agree.

    I'm not in a very good mood these few days.
    I've think thru certain things.
    I don't wana deceive myself.
    I don't wana face it.
    I realised there's no one i can really talk too.
    Suddenly,
    i just wana be alone.
    I just wana get dead drunk.




    Wednesday, October 28, 2009, 10/28/2009 01:14:00 AM
    Too good to be mine

    Sometimes i'm thinking:
    can eu just turn back and look who is behind eu?
    Do eu think like the way i do?
    Or
    are eu holding back like the way i do sometimes?

    I don't hate eu, neither are eu.
    I don't know how to react at that point of time when eu gave me a smile.
    At that moment,
    i'm just so looking forward to every networking lesson.

    I always don't feel good.
    It's always about pretty faces and fantastic figure in every guy's mouth.
    But, eu don't.
    This one factor is enough for me to cover away all other bad factors.

    I've think through & realised,
    eu will never hold back like the way i do.

    Everybody like pretty faces & fantastic body.
    Maybe eu are just too good to be mine.




    Sunday, October 25, 2009, 10/25/2009 01:47:00 AM
    Friends

    Friends and friendship are one of the best things to have happened to mankind.

    Just imagine what our lives would be without friends? I am sure, it would be horrendous and terrible.
    The moments we share and spend with them are etched lifelong in our memories.

    Moreover, I believe that as you grow, you get a whole new perspective of friendship at each level.
    But everything is not rosy in this life.

    There can be a dark side to this, as well. It could very easily happen that you made friends with an individual and after knowing that person for sometime, you think that this is not going to work out, for various reasons.
    The reasons could be that person's behavior, personal reasons or any other reasons.

    Friends are divided into different groups:

    - The ones who's there in times of trouble and whom we can depend on. A friend who knows our every mood & brightens cloudy days.
    One who's slow to criticize, but quick to offer praise.

    - Friends that need eu only when they need eu.

    - Hi & Bye friends.

    - Friends that betray eu & even more that are worst than that.

    Maybe to eu, i'm just someone who needs eu when i needs eu.
    But eu are definitely more than that.
    I'm putting myself in your shoes.
    & i know that there is nothing i can do if this is what eu want.

    I wana treasure friendship.
    Just like me as a friend.




    Friday, October 23, 2009, 10/23/2009 11:55:00 PM
    ABCD's story

    Once upon a time, A met B and they fell in love with each other.
    B will try his best to make A happy.
    Both thought that they will be the one for each other.

    A never likes night life whereas B is a night life person.
    A tends to be unreasonable at times & get angry over peanuts things.
    As a result, they always quarrel.

    One day, A realised that she and B are drifting apart.
    A then asked B what happen.
    B says that maybe they should separate for awhile.

    A couldn't accept it & insist B to give her another chance.
    But it did not turn out to be what A expected.

    During that period of time, C helped A alot.
    By accompanying A when she is down & sad.
    &
    By helping A to get her and B back together.

    C always tell A not to give up easily as he thinks that this is not what B wanted as well.
    After hanging on there for a period of time, A scolded C for always giving her false hopes.

    A decided to give up.
    A told C that maybe they should stop contacting each other for awhile because C makes A remind of B.

    So A spend most of her time working and met D.
    After seeing & hanging more often with D, A thought that maybe he is the next person.

    But D has a gf.
    D always say he misses A.

    After hangoing out for a even longer period of time,
    A realises that she don't misses D like that way D do.
    A doesn't enjoy D's company as much as expected.

    D thought that A likes him.
    A didn't bothered to explain.
    But A don't.

    Months later, A saw B & C.
    A wanted to contact C back.
    C didn't reply.

    A is still worried for B.
    A wanted to help B, but there is nth she can do.
    A still misses B deep in the heart.

    But, A & B can never be together again.

    A told D about this.
    D ask A not to think about the bad things she & B shared.
    Think about the happy things they shared together once & smile.

    We might not get back the same taste like before at the same place having the same food.
    Because you enjoy the food at that point of time.

    I watch the deadly tsunami just now.
    It's always said:
    People will only treasure the ones beside them when they are going to lose it.




    Tuesday, October 20, 2009, 10/20/2009 10:45:00 PM
    Change

    My mood wasn't that fantastic this morning.
    Until i attended this tutorial lesson.
    "     Professional And Interpersonal Communication Skills "
    At first, i thought it was just another redundant module.
    But after the lecturer go through what is it all about,
    i don't find it redundant anymore.

    The topic taught for today, "     Change Management "
    We will all have to go through changes in life.
    And we have to try to adapt to it no matter what.
    Some people tend to adapt to changes in a very short time,
    whereas some need a longer longer time.

    How people respond to changes?

    Contentment ---> Denial ---> Confusion ---> Renewal

    Contentment
    We feel content and don't see the need for change. Life is good. We are centred, focused and in control.

    Denial
    Most people's first reaction to change is to go into this, where we act as if everything's okay when at a deeper level, a little voice nags us that things are a mess. We stay here because we don't know or don't want to get out.
    For most of us, sooner or later, we will acknowledge the information, feelings and advice around us, and we become convinced that the changes before us is real.

    Confusion
    You're neither here nor there. The old way is unravelled, the new way is unclear. Living in uncertainly.

    Renewal
    Full of possibilities to bring out a solution or outcome to the change.

    I think i'm stuck in confusion for too long already.
    :(
    Maybe some thinks that it's rubbish though.
    It's quite inspiring lar huh.

    Hais, i need to complete this assignment by next week:
    Describe the last time you faced an important change. It must be a change that you had no control over - something you did not initiate, but affected you and required you to adapt.

    I know what to write but don't know whether i should write that anot.
    If not i have no more ideas already. =(
    &
    I'm trying my best to adapt to changes now.

    I just hope eu will do well.




    Monday, October 19, 2009, 10/19/2009 06:40:00 PM
    The Truth

    I reach home already.
    It's like damn freaking early.
    I hate it!
    &
    So not used to it.
    What to do,
    school starts already.
    Stupid sem proj, every 2 weeks must present 1 time.
    !!!!!!!!!!

    D asked me how was my first day back in school today.
    I wanted to tell him everything.
    I wanted to tell him i'm not feeling very good today.
    But,
    he is busy working now,
    +
    i don't think he wants to listen to the     the things that i want to say.

    I miss working life seriously.
    I miss going back home together, movie together, eating together & sharing what we have in mind together.
    It's like so carefree.
    But now,
    even if i'm not ok,
    i must also show a ok face to everyone.
    &
    Must act as if nth happen no matter what.
    This sucks.

    Wil says don't write the things that i told him just now in my blog.
    I can only say,
    Your expressions show everything.
    &
    I know the truth won't turn out to be the one i wanted.
    Give me afew more days to digest the truth, the fact.




    Friday, October 16, 2009, 10/16/2009 01:46:00 AM
    Be contented

    My throat is still fine after 6 hours of singing.
    I can only say my singing sucks.
    :(
    Watched the 'Darah'.
    Bloody + gross.
    :X

    Someone said this,
    I'm not like eu all who have parents to pay everything for eu.
    I need to work and earn money myself to pay for all my expenses.
    I feel alittle =( when i heard this.



    Tell me not to waste money.
    Tell me to show lesser attitude.
    Tell me to treat others the way i want them to treat me.
    Tell me to be contented with what i have.
    Tell me to appreciate other people's kind intentions.
    Tell me not to compare myself with others.
    Tell me to live my life for myself and not others.
    Tell me to be happier.

    I know that there are alot more people out there who are less fortunate than me or rather us.
    But, we still complain over what we have, over tiny little things.
    When will i understand this?

    Last,
    I can't figure out this.
    What makes 2 person fall in love with each other?
    What makes 2 person to be able to stay together forever?
    Nights.




    Tuesday, October 13, 2009, 10/13/2009 06:57:00 PM
    不完美

    你常常说 我很完美

    没人能取代 我给的一切

    我就以为 我努力更完美

    我们 就会永远

    完美并不美 我们多虚伪

    你让我的好 变成一种罪

    完美并不美 当你爱了谁

    我的完美也只是 不完美

    後来你说 我太完美

    值得更好的 陪在我身边

    你不是我 你怎么能体会

    你有 多么珍贵

    我的完美成了罪




    Monday, October 12, 2009, 10/12/2009 11:50:00 PM
    Praying hard

    Finally back to blogging.
    Last few days was quite hectic.

    Sat,
    consider the busiest day every week in IS.
    I hate Oties on that day cause he acted like Ivan.
    Shout like nobody's business. =.=
    &
    Thinking that i have to do morning shift with him the next day,
    i was complaining to D all the way from orchard to marina and back to woodlands.

    Sun,
    Business was like slow.
    When he came back from break,
    he was holding to 2 boxes of Bakerzin.
    &
    1 box is for me sia!
    Another is for them to share.
    A heart-shaped chocolate cake.
    Kind of freaked me out. =X
    Went to watch 500 days of summer.
    It's not funny + i don't understand.
    Been watching not nice movie recently.
    =(

    Mon,
    I spent $300+ just now.
    But luckily, half is from my mum.
    Work more = spent more.

    Tml is pay day but i'm not working. :(
    Initially, tml should be going singing with my friends.
    But change to thurs cause hr wasn't able to go as something crops up last min.
    Was kind of sad at first cause i really REALLY wana sing so much.
    But nevermind, thurs will be 7 hours of singing if everyone's punctual.
    Thumbs up* :D

    Maybe i face eu too much recently until i've this thought that,
    with my mp3 on,
    i really don't mind going home myself.

    My mum told me a bad news just now.
    My grandpa in malaysia, suffer from a stroke, causing paralysis.
    &
    They are going back this Friday to see how he was.
    I wanted so much to go back.
    But,
    i scare i won't wana come back.
    I scare i will cry so hard so hard.

    2 weeks ago, i went back with my parents to visit them.
    He is still healthy and active.
    I noticed that he cough alot and nobody cares about it.
    2 weeks later, this happens.
    Before i left that place to singapore, i was praying to god.
    I say i hope my grandma, grandpa & uncle to be healthy and happy.

    I'm so sad.
    I'm so worry.
    I want my grandpa to recover.
    ='(




    Thursday, October 8, 2009, 10/08/2009 01:03:00 AM
    I supposed

    Hmm, today is a not bad day.
    I had my ftt at 1145am.
    &
    I took a cab there cause i couldn't wake up.
    Having the ' SURE FAIL ' mindset, i was thinking of skipping it initially but luckily i didn't.
    Because i PASSED!
    & i didn't study as compared to the first attempt i did.
    =)
    Tp next.
    But then, which instructor to choose?
    How do i book?
    How do i pay?
    All the how-es.

    Thinking of having a car of my own makes me excited.
    I can go for a spin anytime i like.
    My bro wouldn't be sharing with me as he likes bike more.
    HOHO.
    Hope it won't be that long.

    After that, had lunch & movie with D.
    ' Accident '
    It sucks seriously.
    I wanted to watch surrogates but cause of the timing, we skipped that.
    Regretted.

    After movie, tennis with friends.
    My skills was kind of bad. :(
    They told me that the timetable was out.
    &
    I'm not in the same class with the ones who click with me.
    &&&
    I had one module that will be taught by my dear fyp assessor WONG.
    That idiotic Wong.
    I'm gona CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE!
    I'll call my mentor early in the morning later.
    I hope i'm able to change to the other module group.
    Sigh~

    Don't wana go school.
    Don't wana face things that i don't wana face.
    Or,
    am i thinking too much again?

    Nights.




    Wednesday, October 7, 2009, 10/07/2009 01:58:00 AM
    Looking back

    I'm back.
    Still in my holiday mood thou.
    +
    I miss my grandma, grandpa and uncle.
    Wish they will be healthy and happy always. =)

    My body and leg are all red.
    DAMN itchy.
    Either i have eaten something wrong or i came into contact with something that i'm allergic to.
    ARGH!!

    Went to work just now.
    I was late.
    Hmm, seems to be able to do better without my dear SM around.
    Thurs gona work morning shift with him again.
    I HATE it!
    After that, BK with D and back home.
    I realized something these few days,
    i thought it is but it is not.
    It's just that i'm not used to it when its not around & nothing more than that.

    Everyone likes people who treat them good.
    This is it.
    VERY BAD huh. =(

    I love this song so much so much.
    Maybe because this is the 1st song eu sang infront of me.
    I even think that eu sing better than the original singer.
    &
    I'll sing this song whenever i go K with my friends.

    I always like to think back.
    " What if i'm not like this?"
    "What if i had done this earlier?"
    "Will the outcome still be the same?"

    Why are we created with eyes on the front & not at the back?
    Because we are supposed to look forward and not look back.

    Sometimes,
    doesn't mean that eu must be with that person eu like.
    Maybe just think of him/her is enough already.

    School is starting real soon.
    Am i looking forward to it?
    I doubt so.

    I'm going to bed now.
    I need wake up at 1030 tml.
    Settle my stuffs first follow by lunch at amk with D.
    &
    EXERCISE with my friends.
    I want everyday will be a good day.

    Why can't i be like ' them '?




    Thursday, October 1, 2009, 10/01/2009 04:26:00 PM
    Motivation

    Packing my bag now.
    And busy downloading song.
    =X
    I'm going to relax, eat & shop for all i can.
    I miss my friends.
    SILLY.
    I hate the time when i need to come back to Singapore.
    Will everything change.
    I've got a feeling.

    Tell myself that i will definitely improve.
    DKNY, RALPH LAUREN,
    I'm coming.
    Last, eu are there to listen to my problems recently.
    Really a big thanks.

    Sometimes, i really don't mean anything.
    But some take it very seriously.
    =(
    I hope everything will be good.

    Will be back 5 days later.