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Tuesday, September 29, 2009, 9/29/2009 11:54:00 PM

SIGH

So long never update le huh.
Because i'm tired + lazy.
Been working morning shift again from mon.
Just back from watching a movie called "The Ugly Truth".
It's funny and nice but i kind of think that i watched with the wrong people thou.
haha.

What can i say.
Still learning in process.
So much expectations that i wana reach for myself.

Today, once again, i cried in bar.
DAMN MALU.
Should i be proud that i express out all my emotions thru crying which i'll be okie once i finish crying or is it better to bottled everything up in my heart?
But i cannot hide my emotions inside me.
Guess this is something that i cannot change.
So immature huh. =(

I read this from somewhere:

I cry doesn't mean i'm weak.
You don't cry doesn't mean eu are strong.
How true.

I need a break seriously.
After tml, i'll get a 5 days off from work.
Finally i can take a break away from Singapore.

Let everything starts from zero can..

Saturday, September 26, 2009, 9/26/2009 03:39:00 AM

OH.

It's really very demoralizing to see the big word '' FAILED " in the com screen.
I won't wana take the car license if i have a choice.

So after my ftt, i went to cine to meet my friends to watch phobia 2.
The movie sucks seriously.

Met up with my poly mates for dinner at 630pm.
Walk all the way from ion to ps because i wanted to try the Manhattan fish market which i have never tried before.
The queue was freaking freaking long.
ZX have to rush home early & thus cannot wait.
So we settle for The Cafe Cartel, like again. =(
But the pork rib was nice.

1030pm meet up with my friends again to jurong east.
They wanted to go prawning.
& for freaking 3 hrs plus,
we only have 1 prawn in our net. =.=
Sleepy and boring looking at other ppl 's net which is full of prawns.
I cannot upload photos.
Desktop too slow.
YAWNS*
My nose hurts.
+
I'm super sleepy.
Nights.

Thursday, September 24, 2009, 9/24/2009 12:08:00 AM

T_T

Just saw my result.
What can i say.
Aww, my GPA drop drop drop.
='(
My friend so sarcastic.
Say i always late + always slack can get this result very good liao.
@#$%^&*!
So no mood now.
I have 1 more sem left only.
I want my GPA to increase.
Say is always easier than to do it la huh.

Tml is studying time.
Friday is gathering time.
Sat is working time.
So sad so sad.
='(

Tuesday, September 22, 2009, 9/22/2009 11:59:00 PM

Complicated

Been working morning shift for the past 2 days.
I don't like morning shift.
Must wake up damn early + alot of craps.
Make me so freaking tired. =(

Had dinner with D just now.
Kind of hate him sometimes.
Cause other than bar thingy, he is the one who make me so freaking bad mood for the past 2 days.
So we discussed about our work.
He says this is normal, and that everyone will have to pass thru this stage.
He says i'm over reacting. =X
I have to understand that this is life.
I'll try to understand.
He can be very nice.
But,
He can be very cruel sometimes as well.

I won't be angry, neither will i be sad for long.
I just hate it when everything go haywire.
When this certain thing is not going in the right direction, others seem to be following.
Hais~

No worries, i'm going holidays next week.
And also to get my swatch watch back.
Friday, my ftt.
SURE FAIL.
I haven't even open the book and read.
=(

I tried to lock the door because i don't wana let anyone in.
But,
Why must eu force open the door,
When eu already have your own door that is already open.
And do eu know that i'll need time to fix the door back.
Is this right?

I treat people i love with true feelings.
But, why can't they do the same.

Sunday, September 20, 2009, 9/20/2009 01:31:00 AM

Attitude

I'm at wei en's house now.
I'm blogging while they are playing monopoly.
Just now we went to sl hs to give him a surprise cause it's his birthday.
But i think he wasn't shock at all. =(
Yup, talk about something good first.
Today i bought my LV wallet.
And i only spent 1/3 for that wallet. HOHO.

The rest of the content will be nothing good.
Seriously, i HATE DOING BAR.
I've got no passion in it anymore.
Who are eu all to show me attitude?!
When even my mum don't give me attitude.
What for work hard for people like eu all.

I've no intention to leave yet.
I still got that little bit wana learn.
But when even that little bit turns to zero, i think there is no point to stay on anymore.
Im paid to work, so are eu all.
I'm not paid to let people vent their anger on me.
If i really don't wana learn,
Don't say 3 days, 3 weeks i also won't improve.
What for i care so much.

I'm seriously not happy from the day i started doing bar.
Tell me what i should do.
I need eu.
='(
='(

Wednesday, September 16, 2009, 9/16/2009 11:42:00 PM

Weekdays

My shoulders are aching.
My head is spinning.
&
I look like a panda now.
1st day i managed to catch 6 hours of sleep.
2nd day, nothing at all.

We booked 2 rooms.
This is one of the room.

BBQ-ing time!

Playing time!
They even managed to carry the whole mahjong table there. Lol

Wii

Not alot of photos thou.

They don't like to take photos =(

I feel kind of weird.

Maybe because i'm the odd one there.

But i do treasure them.

I wonder if they do. haha

Ftt is next Friday!

I think i've got no time to study for it.

But,

i hope i will pass on that day.

After that, i will need to get a private instructor.

I'm still thinking of whether private or school.

Stupidest SM.

Tml i'm working 8 hours shift.

He still ask me to wait at far east for Zack to take the chicken rice.

#$%^&*(@!

I must wake up 1 hour earlier just to help him carry the chicken rice to the store.

I'm freaking tired now.

Even if i were to go to bed now,

i still don't think i will get enough sleep.

But,

no choice.

Sweet dreams*

Monday, September 14, 2009, 9/14/2009 02:12:00 AM

3 days

I'm packing my bag now.
Yes,
I'm going for chalet later.
And it's like tons of things to bring.
I'm going to enjoy the 3D2N to my fullest with my bunch of guy mates cos after that will be working working & working again. =(
Don't know why,
that i will never be close with any girls.

Sucks huh.
To bath in a strange bathroom.
Sleep in not your bed with people.
But, it's fun & i miss all of them!
Jess say that she is going for her class chalet too.
Maybe i'll get to see her there :D

Work is okie la huh.
Same old routine everyday.
It's kind of sad,
that rum is no longer there to lead us.
Just hope that everything will be fine especially on thurs.

So many things that i wana say out.
But cannot blog.
Sigh~
I wana take photos with them.
I wana talk to them.

I just wana keep a distance.
I don't want anything.
&
I'm so gona sleep now.

Saturday, September 12, 2009, 9/12/2009 02:35:00 AM

Oh how true

Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forward.

Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship, never.

The one who loves least controls the relationship.

A gem cannot be polished without friction, nor a man perfected without trials.

Be not afraid of going slowly, be afraid only of standing still.

Chose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.

To improve is to change; to be perfect is to change often.

Men never remember, but women never forget.

Men often give love for sex, women often give sex for love.

Patience, persistence and perspiration make an unbeatable combination for success.

An eye for eye only ends up making the whole world blind.

A man can be happy with any woman, as long as he does not love her.

I hear and I forget, I see and I remember. I do and I understand.

Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow.

Friday, September 11, 2009, 9/11/2009 01:49:00 AM

Colour it RED

It's my day off today.
WOOT!
Sat & sun work,
AND THEN 3D2N chalet!
Can't wait.

Yesterday i had fun at rebel!
Dancing with the music.
It's like i dance all my stress out. LOL =)

Hm, i think i should go book my ftt tml.
My mum is like keep asking me to get my license asap.
I wanted to go gym to run as well, so wanted la.
But i've got no running mates. =(
After that, i'm going for my pedicure. HOHO
& mon will be my manicure.

I'm saving $$.
I'm working almost everyday.
I'm going shopping soon with my mum.
I'm going to get the wallet i want.
If my mum knows what i did previously,
she will screwed me upside down. =.=
I managed to cover it up though.

I shows her attitude at times.
She still give me money everyday.
She everytime tell us, don't get into a relationship.

You help others, what do eu get in return?
Ask urself again if eu say eu don't expect anything.
Should eu love urself more?
Or should eu love the one eu love more?

This is confusing.
You are contradicting.
You knows that it's wrong.
Yet eu still say those kind of things.
The feeling sucks when i'm being treated as a toy.

You said that it's real.
You said that it's not sweet talk.
I wanted so much to say i really don't like.
Tell me how.
Because of the don't know how, i'm always the one ended up getting hurt.

I have no rights to love anyone.
Teach me how to control this soft-hearted heart of mine.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009, 9/09/2009 01:10:00 AM

Superficial

I cry when i'm sad.
I cry when i'm moody.
I cry when i'm feeling stressful.
I cry when nothing seems right.
I cry over every single, tiny little things.

Just when i'm crying in the kitchen, thinking who to call to pour out my sorrows to,
eu msg me asked me if i want to talk.
You waited for me to knock off from work just to go home with me.
You gave me advises.
I'm glad to have eu at that point of time.
But, everything will just end there.
And no worries,
I will be fine after crying.

Some people say good things to eu just for the sake of saying.
How many people really mean what they say?

Later after work will be going for Nabil's farewell party.
HOHO.
But sad to see him go =(
I promise i won't get drunk. WAHAHA.
Tell me that single life rocks =)

Tuesday, September 8, 2009, 9/08/2009 01:03:00 AM

Screwed up

I'm too tired to say anything.
I even ignore all my friends by not replying their messages, answering to their calls.
This is wrong.
It's not that i purposely,
But i'm really feeling.. i don't know how to describe.

Everyone learn through mistakes.
But in IS,
there seems to be like no such thing as making mistakes.
If eu all are so capable,
run the whole store yourself lo.
Why still waste your time and energy training part timers staffs like us?

I show attitude, i'm in the wrong.
Who don't show attitude in IS?
And when eu did that, do eu think that YOU are wrong at that point of time?
If eu know eu are in the wrong showing attitude at that point of time, then why do eu still do that?

I wanted to learn.
I have expectations for myself also.
But everything is just so screwed up in IS.
Nothing motivates me.

I think i need to get a bf to love me. LOLS. HAHAHA*

Sunday, September 6, 2009, 9/06/2009 03:08:00 AM

New challenge

Later, it will be my 1ST day inside bar with Impian training me.
Seriously, I'M NOT EXCITED AT ALL.
All the bad things are going thru in my mind,
'Getting kicked out from the bar by my DEAR SM.'
'Complaining that i'm slow.'
'Making the wrong drinks.'
'Cash out instead of card bill & so on...'

You know today is sunday and usually the bar will be slammed.
When the bar is been slammed,
everybody's mood started to change from =) to =X @#$%^&!
OH, when this happens i, the newbie in the bar will suffer. =(
When i don't know what i should do, or don't know what toppings to put,
who am i suppose to approach to becos everyone will be busy with the drinks.
And i will be the 'extra' one inside. =.=
The feelings sucks.
But i guess this is what everyone in IS have to go thru.
HAIS.

No one is perfect.
I'm sure most of us agree to this sentence.
BUT,
Imperfect person will always comment on another imperfect person.
Meaning,
No matter how i try my best to do,
there will always be people commenting behind eu.
'She never do this, she never do that.'
'She is slow.'
'She can make it, she cannot make it.'

But everyone have to move on.
We have to learn new things.
Cannot always stuck at the service part right.
So i hope later things will go smoothly.
There will be a list of things for me to memorize later.

My pathetic schedule:
4th sep, fri : 430-9
5th sep, sat : 315-945
6th sep, sun : 345-945
7th sep, mon : 345-945
8th sep, tues: 345-945
9th sep, wed : 345-945
10th sep, thurs : 345-945
11th sep, fri : OFF, like finally.
12th sep, sat : 245-945
13th sep, sun : 345-945

Tell me how tiring is this.

Don't expect me to fly when i haven't learn how to walk.

Thursday, September 3, 2009, 9/03/2009 11:33:00 PM

What a day

Finally feeling refreshing after the shower.

All the dirts sticking around in my whole body sucks.

So woke up at 830am.

Met up with Vic & Wil at mrt station, took the cab to changi village and had our breakfast there
After that, we took the boat to pulau ubin.

& Welcome to Pulau Ubin

So we went to rent the bikes and started cycling around.

I was excited at first cos this is my first time here.

I don't know how to see the map. lols

We did nothing much just cycling around exploring.

We have to climb up this which is about 4 storey high bcos vic says the scenery is nice up there.

OMG, And it is shaky =X

So is there anything nice up there? Hmm, okie lar huh.

After a long day, this is what we need most,

It was fun actually.

But something happen which make my day abit ruined.

And DAMN DAMN malu.

FORGET forget~~
AND SUNBURN.

This is the difference, before & after.

Way back, we took bus 59 from changi village to bishan.

It was a freaking long trip, about 2 hours =.=

I'm planning what to do tml. SIANS.

I'm tired already.

Why does the night seems so lonely.

And sometimes, i really don't know what some people are thinking.

They are just making me going haywire.

@#$%&*!

Wednesday, September 2, 2009, 9/02/2009 11:59:00 PM

WED

I'm back from work.
Been working for 2 days and will be off for the next 2 days. :)
Today at around 9pm,
Suddenly came a few kids + the father + the grandmother.
It was okie cos Rudy said we need reach at least 1.8 to 2k.

I was planning to do my closing real fast & i saw smth.
I was cursing at this damn customer.
He was stupid because he forgotten to take his wallet.
Then Rudy asked me to check his wallet to see if there is any contact number that we can call as he scared the customer will accuse us or call the store to take back his wallet when we have alrdy closed blah blah blah.
FINE, i search.
Driving license, IC, cards & i found this damn thing, a condom. =.-
And he is a Uni student.
WHO the hell will put such thing inside the wallet la huh.
Maybe he's too stressful already. LAME SHIT.
Thanks to him that i'm still sweeping the floor when Liling already finish her bar thingy.

Tomorrow going pulau ubin with Marvin, Victor & Wil.
I never been there before.
Ferry sounds cool huh.
I hopes it don't rain.
I have to wake up at around 8 plus. Yawns*
Look at the time now.
& i haven bath.
Btw, thanks for the salmon pepper lunch today.
BYE~

9/02/2009 01:46:00 AM

CRAPS & BULLSHITS

WHAT AM I THINKING?!
WHAT AM I WAITING?!
WHAT AM I HOPING?!
ALL CRAPS & BULLSHITS!
GIVE ME TONS OF SLAPS TO WAKE ME UP!!

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