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Friday, April 30, 2010, 4/30/2010 03:45:00 AM
Getting out
I have lots of stuffs to blog about. I seldom wana tell friends about it so i'll just blog here.
:)
So have been busy & having not enough sleep for the past one week.
Certain things happen. Things that i would never do but i did.
=(
21st April, Power house with poh guan and his friends, edward and guan da.
So this is how i know them.
22nd April, mahjong over at edward house until 5am.
23rd April, Zouk with them and some of my secondary schools friends.
24th April, Texas poker over at justin's friends house.
25th, again mahjong over at edward's house.
26th, last practical lesson, feeling damn tired, went amk for l4d with justin and tian shun.
My TP date is confirm! : 16th June, 1145am. ( Still longgg though )
And yesterday power house again with them. =.=
cause edward's going in army next week thats why he wants to enjoy ttm now. (Lols)
And today, i went to xiao bai's for MAHJONG LIKE AGAIN. (I lost 25 bucks -.-)
Now, i'm so sick of clubbing.
So sick of mahjong.
I know him for a week.
Somehow, he caught some of my attention.
& we have been hanging out tgt for the past one week.
I've so many questions about him.
The words he said don't sound convincing to me.
He do not take initiative.
Yet yesterday, i cried over him just because he said he got smth on.
I was wondering why i cried.
Trying to convince myself that i'm not at all crying bcos of him.
NO! :)
You're not worth it, so am i.
This is the guy that i'm talking about. (of cos cannot show the whole face. HAHA!)
& i agree that everything fade as time pass by.
Anyway, he's going army soon.
I wouldn't fall deeper. I promise.
Mum's asking me to stop playing.
DON'T LIKE*** =X
&&
I seriously regretted tattoo-ing :'(
&&&
I want to watch Iron man and IP man! ASK ME ASK ME ^^
I'm going back to work later. *YAWNS*
):
Wednesday, April 21, 2010, 4/21/2010 03:44:00 AM
Wedding dress
Never should've let you goNever found myself at home
Ever since that day that you walked
Right out the door
You were like my beating heart
That I, I can't control
Even though we've grown apart
My brain can't seem to let you go
Thinking back to the old times
When you kept me up late at night
We use to mess around
Laugh and play, fuss and fight
I guess it's too late
I'm dancing this dance alone
This chapter's done
The story goes on
Baby
Can't believe that you are not with me
' Cause you should be my lady
All i want is to set your heart free
But if you believe that you belong to him
Promise me, you won't let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you
In that wedding dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress
See you in that wedding dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress
Snappin' out this misery
Depression this ain't me
But i always turn around
180 degrees
You got control of me
And I, I can't explain
Somebody call 911 Emergency
Before i go insane
Since you've moved on
You took a piece of me give it back
So much pain in my chest
Blacking out, heart attack
And i see you with your man
And it's hard to understand
If we belong, If i did you wrong
Where we even begin
We would always fuss and fight
And it seems nothing was right
But i loved you girl and you were my girl
But you'd never trust this guy
'Cause the things i do when i'm on the stage
They say i'm a superstar
You couldn't understand all the female fans
And then we grew apart
And i just don't get
When you're acting like some other person
But i try my best to hold on
At the times when it ain't working
And everytime that you say it's over
It breaks my heart and i don't know why
'Cause you've done it alot of times
In the past but i get up and try
You said we could work it out
How could you hurt me now
And you moved on to the next
I'm left with an imperfect smile
---------Wedding Dress---------
Thumbs up!
FINALLY, its my off time today!
Only today i'm off for this week :(
hmm, actually promised justin to go queenstown with him later to repair his lappy.
But suddenly rmb i have practical lesson at 105pm. (NEARLY FORGOTTEN :X )
I've missed it once. (Not gona missed it later again!)
& tml i have to pass the checklist stuffs if not have to retake that lesson!
Hate irresponsible LORRY DRIVERS.
& Hate drivers who purposely overtake me yet i can do nothing! @#$*(&)^!
IF i were to acc him to queenstown after practical lessons,
I'll be dead tired like shit for these 2 days.
HAIS. DON'T LIKE THE FEELING OF TIRED.
ESP WHEN I STILL NEED TO WORK WHEN I'M TIRED!
Tml, singing at 7pm.
After that going to reach vivo at 1030pm to meet pg.
Going ph with pg and 2 of his friends!
^ ^
Another thing, actually i wanted to go IB to work after my hours at IS.
IS : 12pm-7pm
IB: 7-11pm
I doubt i will get enough sleep tml so how can i hang on for that 11 hours the next day?
:(
'Cos everyone have been saying IB person are friendly.
Wana see for myself, the feel of working in a new environment & not about that OT money.
I LOVE MEETING NEW FACES!
:D
Just remain like that.
Or just be even better.
Right now, i still feel abit sad that D is leaving.
He is nice, really.
But just too bad.. nice people always don't stay long :'(
If eu can't stay with me forever,
I want friends to stay with me forever.
'Cos i know friends stay longer than couple.
Thursday, April 15, 2010, 4/15/2010 04:18:00 AM
Good people are hard to be
---断点---
静静地陪你走了好远好远
连眼睛红了都没有发现
听着你说你现在的改变
感觉我依然最爱你的笑脸
这条走路依然没有改变
以往的每次路过都是晴天
想起我们有过的从前
泪水就一点一点开始蔓延
我转过我的脸 不让你看见
深藏的暗涌已经越来越明显
过完了今天 就不要再见面
我害怕每天醒来想你好几遍
我吻过你的脸 你双手缠在我的双肩
感觉有那么甜 我那么依恋
每当我闭上眼我总是可以看见
失信的诺言全部都会实现
我吻过你的脸 你已经不在我的身边
我还是祝福你过得好一点
断开的感情线
我不要做断点
只想在睡前再听着你的 蜜语甜言
This is one of the songs that i love most!
Some songs are really nice.
I think cause of their lyrics, it tends to make one emo easily if eu were to listen to these songs during those silent nights. =(
But, i'm not emo-ing now.
I seriously HATE those people whom only know how to say others and will never reflect on themselves.
Don't mention names.( if not i will become like one of them =X )
Just hope i will meet lesser of such people.
Sometimes, GOOD PEOPLE ARE REALLY HARD TO BE.
When eu're already trying to be a better person to others, yet eu still have to take that shit.
I should start be more optimistic or rather think through in certain stuffs.
I always remembered last time in secondary 1 school life.
I was abit plump, with nerdy spec and bangs back then.
&
My class happened to have only 4 girls including me.
3 of us were quite good friends, the other 2 was considered pretty back then.
So natural the guys would love to make friends with them.
I felt left out.
In order to be like 'popular' like them,
I intiated helping my guys mates to do their homework for them.
I thought by doing so, i can be in their clique.
Thats why i used to rank friends in the first place.
Although these have already past long ago,
But i feel that somehow the world didn't change at all.
People are still so realistic.
Now i would say, i will try my best to be a friend to eu.
If eu wana be out of my life, i won't force eu all to stay.
Sometimes, i suddenly realised how important it is to have a best best friend of your sex.
115pm, practical lessons. :(
I really think that vertical parking is more difficult than parallel parking nia!
Going KBOX at amk later!
Can't wait!
But singing SUCKS. Who cares.
Ice skating that day was cancelled :(
$21.50 entrance fees for 2 hours. Not counting rental of shoes and gloves.
Worth it? My friends say no.
I WANT GO ZOO ZOO ZOO!
I prefer going in group.
Unless that person is someone i'm really very very comfortable with but well ):
I should really sleep soon.
Mum is complaining that i'm going thinner, sleeping late.
&
My appetite isn't that good today.
Hate the feeling of feeling tired yet can't rest.
o.O
静静地陪你走了好远好远
连眼睛红了都没有发现
听着你说你现在的改变
感觉我依然最爱你的笑脸
这条走路依然没有改变
以往的每次路过都是晴天
想起我们有过的从前
泪水就一点一点开始蔓延
我转过我的脸 不让你看见
深藏的暗涌已经越来越明显
过完了今天 就不要再见面
我害怕每天醒来想你好几遍
我吻过你的脸 你双手缠在我的双肩
感觉有那么甜 我那么依恋
每当我闭上眼我总是可以看见
失信的诺言全部都会实现
我吻过你的脸 你已经不在我的身边
我还是祝福你过得好一点
断开的感情线
我不要做断点
只想在睡前再听着你的 蜜语甜言
This is one of the songs that i love most!
Some songs are really nice.
I think cause of their lyrics, it tends to make one emo easily if eu were to listen to these songs during those silent nights. =(
But, i'm not emo-ing now.
I seriously HATE those people whom only know how to say others and will never reflect on themselves.
Don't mention names.( if not i will become like one of them =X )
Just hope i will meet lesser of such people.
Sometimes, GOOD PEOPLE ARE REALLY HARD TO BE.
When eu're already trying to be a better person to others, yet eu still have to take that shit.
I should start be more optimistic or rather think through in certain stuffs.
I always remembered last time in secondary 1 school life.
I was abit plump, with nerdy spec and bangs back then.
&
My class happened to have only 4 girls including me.
3 of us were quite good friends, the other 2 was considered pretty back then.
So natural the guys would love to make friends with them.
I felt left out.
In order to be like 'popular' like them,
I intiated helping my guys mates to do their homework for them.
I thought by doing so, i can be in their clique.
Thats why i used to rank friends in the first place.
Although these have already past long ago,
But i feel that somehow the world didn't change at all.
People are still so realistic.
Now i would say, i will try my best to be a friend to eu.
If eu wana be out of my life, i won't force eu all to stay.
Sometimes, i suddenly realised how important it is to have a best best friend of your sex.
115pm, practical lessons. :(
I really think that vertical parking is more difficult than parallel parking nia!
Going KBOX at amk later!
Can't wait!
But singing SUCKS. Who cares.
Ice skating that day was cancelled :(
$21.50 entrance fees for 2 hours. Not counting rental of shoes and gloves.
Worth it? My friends say no.
I WANT GO ZOO ZOO ZOO!
I prefer going in group.
Unless that person is someone i'm really very very comfortable with but well ):
I should really sleep soon.
Mum is complaining that i'm going thinner, sleeping late.
&
My appetite isn't that good today.
Hate the feeling of feeling tired yet can't rest.
o.O
Tuesday, April 13, 2010, 4/13/2010 12:19:00 AM
E
Although we always say we will not talk about unhappy stuffs, about the past anymore, yet sometimes we will still talk and share certain things to our friends.
We learn through mistakes.
&
How i wish i do not have to go through all these before i learnt my mistakes.
I ALWAYS thought i understand eu even though i know eu for only few months.
But always outsiders prove me likewise.
You don't have a choice?
I'm forced to be like that.
I can only be like that.
Never feel so given up on someone before.
Not in any position to say anything also.
I never knew that a person can affect eu so much.
JOKES*
And as for YOU.
Don't make things complicated when it can be just that simple.
It makes me feel so uncomfortable.
I can like a person for long, really long.
But right now, all these aren't important anymore.
Tomorrow 815am practical lessons.
Follow by ice skating.
WEE~ :)
Just believe that the best has yet to come.
Live your life in a more simple way, and you will be happier.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010, 4/06/2010 03:59:00 AM
CHANGES
No one will stay with eu forever. Even the one eu thought that will stay by your side leaves eu too.
I think i've sort of understand this sentence.
So in my workplace,
people seems to be leaving or being transferred out one by one.
D says that he wanted to leave too.
Maybe alittle sad.
But well, people come and go.
We feel sad because we are not 'used' to the new environment,
not used to without having that person eu used to have, used to work with.
After a period of time when we are used to it, everything will be fine.
That day i had a talk with Elgin.
Kind of find him mature in some ways sometimes.
&
I'm determined to change this time.
ATTITUDE.
Sometimes, sorry can only be used ONCE.
Some are really friends that i'll never wana lose.
Trust myself that i'll put in effort this time.
As long as i manage to pull through, my life will be better :)
I'm consider fortunate.
At least i don't have to support myself.
At least my parents hold a job.
At least i still have that little bit of freedom.
So i should just stop complaining always.
Stop being so emotional.
The past can never be erased.
I missed that chance.
I don't wana look back again.
Suddenly, i missed my practical lessons.
&
Seriously, i hope to pass my TP FAST.
eXcItEd** =D
&&
My working hours sucks.
Only 1 day off this week.
I can't go out enjoy with friends! =(
I wonder,
Why am i working so hard?
Thursday, April 1, 2010, 4/01/2010 02:38:00 AM
Don't give a damn
It's NOT POSSIBLE to change.Because it have already becomes a habit.
Why should i give a damn.
Friends treat me like shit sometimes also.
Maybe because they are guys.
&
Some only find eu when they need eu.
Although maybe we seems close, always hanging out together,
but,
do we consider best/good or even close friends?
They won't be the one listening to my problems also.
&
They don't give a damn when i wasn't in a good mood too.
I'm not saying they are at fault.
I've my best to be at least a good friend to them.
But, sometimes i feel that we are actually worlds apart.
I look at YOUR FACEBOOK just now.
&
I fucking given up on eu.